As we prepare to transition to Southeast Asia, I have been asking God to show me how He will use me there.
Transitioning from Japan, the second-richest country in the world, to a third-world country will be a challenge for me on many levels. But lately, Jesus has been wooing me deeper into His heart, and I am falling in love with what I find there.
Recently, in the prayer room at the International House of Prayer in Kansas City, I had a vision. I have never had an experience quite like this, and I wanted to share a short recap:
During a time of worship I was praying, “Jesus, I just want to know your heart more….” After worshiping for a while, I found myself in a room with a staircase that led to a basement. Jesus was beckoning for me to go downstairs with Him to a “deeper” level of His heart.
I spent time with Him on different levels, each time going deeper than before. On each level, he revealed profound things to me about my relationship with Him.
At one point, I realized that Jesus was no longer with me. A dark staircase led to another level, and I understood that I was to take that lonely descent by myself.
Starting down the cold steps, I realized I was carrying over my head an enormous, heavy bag representing all the material possessions that I am so attached to on this earth. I understood that I had to lay it down in order to enter the next level to His heart. I also had to take off my hat and nametag, the symbols of all my accomplishments and reputation I have made for myself in my ministry.
I felt naked when I stripped myself of these items and walked through the narrow door. Compared to the other rooms where Jesus had taken me, this room was very plain. Jesus was sitting on a dirt floor in the middle of the room, surrounded by children with dark, Asian faces. They were dirty and thin, and some of them were naked. I heard His voice say,
“When you look into their eyes, you will see ME. They are My seed.”
Then I saw tiny babies in incubators in an orphanage in Asia, some of them deformed. They had been labeled helpless and unloved. The picture zoomed out to show our Rylee standing next to me with hands stretched out toward the babies. I heard Jesus say,
“These are my seed. Sing and proclaim life over them. They are not forgotten. They have a destiny to fulfill before I return.”
Next, I saw little Asian boys with shaved heads. They were dressed in orange gowns and were being raised to be priests in a Buddhist Temple. Jesus said,
“These are my seed. I am jealous for them. Prophesy and proclaim their release from bondage…that they will be rescued and brought home to serve in My house.”
Finally, I saw a picture of our family in Southeast Asia, surrounded by children. I was playing a keyboard and teaching them to sing and pray scripture. I was teaching them to take their place as contenders for their nation. Jesus said,
“When you look into their eyes you will see Me. These are the future of the nations.”
I was overwhelmed and humbled: going deeper into His heart meant lowering myself and realizing that one of Jesus’ most valued treasures were the little children discarded by the world.
Then, before I knew it, everything seemed to turn upside down. The dark basement room I had descended levels to find had turned “right-side-up” to be the closest place next to His throne…the closest place to His heart.
May God turn all of our hearts upside-down with a revelation of His heart!